SILENCE AFTER CHAOS

Everyone is gone

All is quiet

A big smile creeps over my face

I'm sitting here like a Cheshire cat

Looking around the room, just smiling

Smiling, surprised and SMILING

Peace at last

Silence. I love silence

And my own space

No one asking me for anything

No one screaming if I don't jump up straight away

No baby wanting to feed from me and bite me

Just sitting. Relaxing. Typing

No one here. No one about to arrive. 

Morning in my house all to myself

I can hear the birds chirping for the first time

Because there is no noise here to drown them out

What will I do with this rare mummy time off?

I had planned to go food shopping

But I can't be bothered

I need to do laundry as big piles have smothered my bedroom for days

But I can't be bothered

I had planned to run an errand for my hubby

But I can't be bothered.

I'm loving this quiet house

Seeing it for the first time in its spring glory

I know, I'll make myself a cup of herbal tea and sit in the garden 

Soak up the beautiful view that I no longer normally notice

I'll be nice to myself

Wrap myself in the beauty of this introspection

And tune into my core

Check that I'm still there

Do a few repairs to my frazzled nerves

And give a warm hug to my soul

Oh this is just lovely

I'm still here. I feel happiness creeping over me

Hello Me, it's nice to make your acquaintance again

I missed you. You're doing great, well done.

Days like this make it all worthwhile.

My question for the day:  

Why is it that separation is the only thing that makes us appreciate what we have? 

• Hubby has been away for a few days and I find myself missing him, even though we're like old odd socks these days that get on each others nerves when he's around the house during the day, invading my space and cramping my social life.

• Suddenly I miss my kids and they've only been gone half an hour. No, thought be gone, this is my time, go get that cup of tea Amy and take a few breaths outside!